afterwards

It always impresses me how bright the colour green is after snow. We’ve only had a week of snow cover, a fraction of the successive months I used to undergo in Quebec, yet as the grass reveals itself again it appears supernaturally viridian. The dullness of the day enhances the effect, the persistent rain and low grey cloud allowing the hues of the ground to come into their own, glowing with an inner luminance and seeming to rise out of the earth towards us.

I’ve loved having the snow. I’ve loved the simplicity and purity of the visual landscape and skyscape, the soft white carpet and laden charcoal-grey clouds completing each other in a quiet monochromatism. In Quebec, the snow stayed for so long that by February I would be longing for greenness, like a physical thirst. I don’t feel that now. Indeed, our snow spell has been all too brief. But something in me does feel relieved and enlivened—satiated—by the visible verdancy, the lurid green allure.

Lochinver, Assynt, Scotland
11th January 2026

asphodel

We were nine women walking, tramping over bouncy heather moorland above the steep shores of Loch a’ Chàirn Bhàin, when one of us stopped to point out a bog asphodel which was just coming into flower. We gathered round and marvelled at its starry yellow blooms and another of us remarked that, in addition to the Elysian Fields of Greek mythology, those blessed green meadows of the afterlife, there were said also to be asphodel fields, though she noted this probably did not refer to bog asphodel.

I looked this up online when I returned home and found that, while the Elysian Fields were reserved for the righteous (along with gods and nobles) and a hellish land called Tartarus was set aside for the wicked, the fields of asphodel were allotted to ordinary folk.

The significance of the asphodel is debated. Some Greek writers felt the paleness of the petals evoked a pallid, ghostly quality, while others drew on its more ancient connotations of fragrant fertility.

Even in the latter case, however, I sense these asphodel fields are not for me, nor the endless blessings of Elysium. In the afterlife, I want for my part only a rolling peatland, grown over with purpling heather and green and gold grasses, with viridian clumps of moss glowing in the fine northern sun, and everywhere the pure yellow stalks of bog asphodel standing upright like tiny sentinels of joy.

Perhaps, for those of us of Scotland, we can spend our eternity meandering in such a place, gazing into lochans and reflecting in the clear summer light. When I think of it, however, I find myself imagining not a summer moorland but an autumnal one, the grasses turning amber and bronze, the dried heather flowerheads becoming that lovely muted mauve, and the bog asphodel vivid orange, its little tongues of flame everywhere sparking, everywhere speaking of warm hearts and hearths in the cool oncoming dusk.

And no more midges.

Torr a’ Ghamnha, Assynt, Scotland
6th July 2025

hazel

bright green and yellow backlit hazel leaf with sun-dappled trees in the background

beneath the feathered yellow haze of the larch
and the tiny gold coins of the birch leaves
the last green fires alight

Culag Wood, Lochinver, Sutherland, Scotland
26th September 2020

enough

What more could you ask for
than green mossy grass
beneath trees
in sunlight?

Culag Wood, Lochinver, Sutherland, Scotland
27th April 2020

offerings

red japanese maple keys with orange leaf hanging before winter green grass

Green temples, red altars.
Places to offer yourself,
places to belong.

transparent orange Japanese maple leaf in bed of red ones

Bryngarw Country Park, Glamorgan, South Wales
23rd October 2019