afterwards

It always impresses me how bright the colour green is after snow. We’ve only had a week of snow cover, a fraction of the successive months I used to undergo in Quebec, yet as the grass reveals itself again it appears supernaturally viridian. The dullness of the day enhances the effect, the persistent rain and low grey cloud allowing the hues of the ground to come into their own, glowing with an inner luminance and seeming to rise out of the earth towards us.

I’ve loved having the snow. I’ve loved the simplicity and purity of the visual landscape and skyscape, the soft white carpet and laden charcoal-grey clouds completing each other in a quiet monochromatism. In Quebec, the snow stayed for so long that by February I would be longing for greenness, like a physical thirst. I don’t feel that now. Indeed, our snow spell has been all too brief. But something in me does feel relieved and enlivened—satiated—by the visible verdancy, the lurid green allure.

Lochinver, Assynt, Scotland
11th January 2026

downfall

I haven’t wanted the rain to come and wash away our lovely white blanket of snow, but it has its own beauty. The air is still and the raindrops pelt straight down in closely packed parallel lines which are unusually vertical. I stand at my caravan’s wide window and watch them, bouncing off the rounded sandstone copes on the wall or vanishing into the snow in front of me. Something about their straightness and linearity is very appealing, a change from the distracted, dancing drift of the snowflakes or the hard, angular momentum of the hail.

The sound is pleasing too, a precise patterning on the aluminium roof, gentler than the loud battering of the hail, more satisfying than the absent settling of the snow. The rain comes down directly, with thoroughness and vigour, and perhaps it’s that I’ve missed during these six days of snowy abandonment, when roads have been impassable, work delayed, and the world slowed and silenced.

The snow has been beautiful, soothing and serene, but it’s time now to move. It’s time now to wash our eyes and ears and step out.

Lochinver, Assynt, Scotland
8th January 2026

the first day

Heaven comes down to meet the earth in hard white balls,
sweeping curtains of swirling spheres,
bouncing as they strike ground, tree stump, woodpile,
gathering momentum as the wind strengthens
to form long battering blasts of horizontal hail—
       the air whitens,
       the sound against the caravan walls sharpens—
and then suddenly it’s quiet
and I look out to see
soft fluffy snowflakes
drifting gently all around us,
like benediction,
like a blessing for a new year.

Lochinver, Assynt, Scotland
1st January 2026

wild is the wind

I was afraid at first. Radio Scotland had talked all day about ‘Storm Bram’, the Met Office had upgraded its weather warning from yellow to amber, and XC Weather and Windy were in agreement, for once, that by midnight, when the wind veered to the south-west, Lochinver would be subject to winds close to 80 mph.

I’d done my best to prepare, tightly tying down the cover on my woodpile, taking in the hanging bird feeders, charging my phone, lamps and laptop in case of power failures, all the while anxiously eyeing the three tall ash trees near the south-west corner of the caravan.

By teatime the wind, still in the south-east, was picking up, its pitch intensifying and the caravan beginning to rattle. I waited for it to escalate, obsessively checking my weather apps to see how the low-pressure system was progressing, but instead there followed an an eerie lull.

At 11 o’clock, worn out with anticipation, I went to bed and waited for the onslaught. Now, as I lie in the darkness, I hear the wind rising and feel the caravan shuddering. My nerves tighten expectantly.

With some gales, like the unnamed south-easterly we had last week, the wind seems creatural, prowling around, probing and pouncing, snatching at the caravan or the corrugated plastic sheets on my woodpile, howling as it snaps twigs and branches from the ashes and flings them at the caravan where they strike with alarming resonance, the slightest glance of a twig amplified into a booming blow.

I brace myself for this but hear not the faintest clunk, nor any tearing bursts. In fact, there are no particular sounds at all—only a general roar, noisy but sonically diffuse, an unspecified loudness. Its volume continues to increase but with steady strength rather than fitful gusts. It, too, is a presence but an impersonal one, a great motion moving through the world, high and wide, so huge in extent it seems boundless.

I can feel it all around me, in the flexing of my flimsy walls, in the subtle lift in the floor, in the shaking of my bed. It’s like being in a small earthquake but instead of being beneath my feet, it’s everywhere: above, below, in all directions; an oncoming immensity, a great mass, enveloping, engulfing. And lying still, held in its surround-sound, I’m becoming part of it. I’m within the wind, in communion with it. For the first time today, I’m at peace.

Lochinver, Assynt, Scotland
9th December 2025

company

the wind, well-travelled,
the sheltering sun,
a pebble,
        waiting in our shadow

Ullapool River, Wester Ross, Scotland
8th September 2025

flow

This is the greatest happiness, moving foot by foot over flowing rock. There’s so much of it, I’m spoilt, running upward and downward, alternating between following smooth tributaries and stravaiging over the wide plains of the full lithic flood.

And it is a flood, a huge bed of quartzite formed from the sands of an ancient seashore, deposited upon Torridonian sandstone, formed from the sands carried by ancient rivers which once flowed over the even more ancient bedrock of Lewisian gneiss. In the intervening millennia, this layered mountain mass has been repeatedly shaped and sculpted by ice and, although it’s been thousands of years since it was last glacially scoured, in places its faces glow like freshly scrubbed skin.

Not much grows on quartzite, so much of its surface is clean: it produces little soil and nutrition, and moss, grass and heather encroach only slowly. However, it’s its tone which brings it to life. It’s a pale stone, creamy-white, grey, or bluish, but is often stained with iron. The tenderness with which the iron tints it continually surprises me, from delicate tinges and marblings of peach and rose to bold stripes and swathes of thick mauve. I can’t help but lay my palms out along it, lie down on it, press myself into it.

I meander my way up the long slow slope to reach the bealach and sit on a flat stone in the largest of its shallow lochans. A huge blue-and-black-striped dragonfly beats around the reedy fringes. It’s so large its wings make a buzzing sound, like a miniature chainsaw cutting about, noisy even over the heavy drone of the bees. Although thinly grown, the quartzite is inhabited. Dor beetles are clambering about, humans too, hiking in serious silence or chatting breathlessly towards the summit, the odd dog scampering ahead. I let them all pass. I’m not going to the top today. Today is for communing with quartzite.

It’s technically not true metamorphic quartzite but quartz arenite, a sandstone comprised almost entirely of quartz, and it’s beautiful. Whatever I’m doing, out walking or building drystone walls, my eyes and hands and feet are drawn to it. It may be hereditary. Stonework runs in my dad’s side of the family, men from the three generations before his being stonemasons and quarry masters, building houses and roads across the Highlands and Perthshire. For a while, my great-grandfather built roads and airstrips with quartzite which he quarried near Onich.

I get up from the lochan and find a boulder to shelter behind. The stiff southerly wind holds a wintry coolness, carrying ravens and sea eagles, and whipping my whitening hair around my face. I find a slanted north-facing shelf and settle myself there, propping a flat stone with a couple of wedges to make a horizontal seat. From here, I look directly ahead to Arkle and Foinaven, the greatest of the quartzite mountains, an extensive complex of ridges with sweeping skirts of scree. I flew over all these mountains in a small plane on a clear winter’s day earlier this year. The sinuousness of their forms is much more apparent from the air as they curve and weave, rising and subsiding like petrified waves. This mountain I’m on now, Quinag, is also a beauty from above, its huge ridges and corries dropping away vertiginously at improbable angles.

What to do with it all? I’m always caught between flight and groundedness, between a rock and a high place. Maybe we all are, living somewhere in the in-between, in the alternation, rising and subsiding, passing through time.

pale grey quartzite with scattered small boulders, edged by bronzing heathery grass

Spidean Coinich, Quinag, Assynt, Scotland
5th September 2025